I admit it. I am a list maker. I even admit that my lists have lists. My morning using starts with my quiet time and before I hit the showers I am reviewing my list. If I am standing in line at the dry cleaners too long, you may see me pull it up on my iPhone and see if there is anything that snuck on there that didn’t get done yet. Because there is joy in checking things off the list! Those are my daily victories, checking stuff off the list! Like the feeling I used to get playing basketball when you put that jump shot up in the air and you see it go swoosh through the net! Yeah Baby!
But I digress. Back to the list. Back to the 30 Days. This is really about staying focused and staying grounded. And this is especially about staying out of panic mode.
I make my lists, and action plans and line out when I want things to happen and when I feel it would be convenient for God to make a way and move things on my behalf. As if all of the universe is really here at my beck and call and just around for my convenience. (Okay, side note – I am really not that selfish but I confess that when I make plans, I am really thinking about how quickly this can happen so that I can move on to the next 50 things to be accomplished, conquered or handled on my lists).
So here is the deal. I ran into a roadblock. I was launching a business (because I am all about multiple income streams) and getting my real estate license with the state of Arizona and had to go through programs, classes, exams and applications. It was months and months worth of time invested and thousands of dollars of my hard earned money (which I do not part with lightly – let’s be real).
So I got to the next step on my list and ran smack dab into a roadblock. What I thought would just be the submission of an online document request turned into consultations with an attorney, multiple drafts of documents and gathering years of documented history and additional letters of endorsement from several sources.
Ouch! None of that had been on my list. And I will be transparent again and say that this “church girl” was ticked off. Yes I had prayed about it. Yes I knew that God was in control of it all. But I was hot about it. As I sat there looking at the trail of emails back and forth on my computer screen listing out the hoops that I would have to jump through – I was so mad I just wanted to cry. As tears began to sting the back of my eyes, my Logic Brain stepped up and said “What good is that going to do? You won’t feel better and you won’t be one single step ahead in any of this mess. So save the tears and do something.”
You can see that my Logic Brain is into tough love. And it was right. So I got moving. And that is what you have to do when you feel stuck in a situation. MOVE. Take Action. I called a close friend who listens to me, let’s me get my venting out of the way, and then helps me mentally clear the way for action. And most importantly, agreed with me in prayer.
I went back through the red tape and paperwork and clarified what the bureaucrats and paper pushers were asking for. I pulled together all of the available information I could and I hand delivered it to the administration office. And as I sat in the quiet waiting room, I just prayed that this would be all that would be needed to get this thing done (and checked off my list).
The clerk called me up, began going through all of the submitted documentation and she said “Congratulations, we can go ahead and approve your paperwork and issue your license today!” Praise the Lord!
While I am sitting there waiting for her to complete my package, the Commissioner of the State of Arizona Department of Real Estate walks into the office. And while greeting the clerk and the other folks in the office, she finds out that I am being granted a license. She comes to me and shakes my hand and congratulates me. Before I am out that office that afternoon, I have met several very nice people and taken a photo with the Commissioner. None of these things were on my list. None of these things could have happened if I had not been detoured. God knew all along. I was the only one fighting the process.
Sometimes you have to surrender the list. Sometimes you have to surrender your own timetable and just be ok with how and when God wants to work this thing out! Because when you look back 30 days later at what you were frustrated about, you can see that God WORKED it out. All you had to do was just WALK it out.
Just give your life a 30 day look back. What stressed you out 30 days ago is part of your testimony today. You are still here! You are a fighter! You are a survivor! And God is using you to show others what the power of strong faith and trust in Him will do! You are a walking testimony of His goodness!